Death and dying

Left to right: Me, Grandma: Maxine Filson, and Aunt Ann Christmas 07

Ya know it is never easy to face death...I know we will all have to die one day and I am not afraid of dying in the least bit. I also know when you hit 90 years old, it is only a matter of time before it is your time to go.

My grandma(father's mom) just turned 91 in September. She has lived a long life. I would even say she has lived longer than most people would have ever thought. My grandma has had diabetes since I was young, probably even before I was born! Recently she fell on the way to the bathroom and blacked out. She required a stay in the hospital for awhile. The last update I had was that she was getting better and would be going home any day. This morning I couldn't sleep(430am) and woke up to a facebook email from my cousin who lives in Colorado, telling me grandma has taken a turn for the worse and is in hospice and they don't expect her to live through the end of the year. I guess I am more sad I haven't been able to be up there in the last year. I always had plans to be up there, but never was able to get there. I really wanted to take Wyatt to meet her, I knew she didn't have much time left, being that she was 91.

I guess in reality I am more sad that she is in pain while passing on. I really pray that she is resting easily and not going thorugh a lot of pain. Now it is time to prepare myself to lose my last living grandparent. I will always have the memories of the times I had growing up. Living with my dad, that was the side of the family I saw the most. It's hard to know that she will soon be gone. It is kinda like loosing a part of my childhood, she was such a big part of it! Soon, she shall be in peace and no longer in the pain.

I love you Grandma!

Sleepy Saturday

Well, today Jerrod and I were recovering from horrible allergies...The Santa Ana's came in with a horrible vengence on our sinuses. I spent most the day relaxing and not doing anything house related. Jerrod on the other hand decided to start Wyatt's dresser/changing table. I had this small dresser growing up. It is a very simple dreser with 3 drawers and it wsn't very tall. I asked Jerrod if he would be able to turn it into a changing table as well. My Mr. Handyman went to work on this small project. He has added a shelf to the dresser and made it into a changing table as well. He has already primed it for painting and I am excited to post the final product here soon. For his hard work I went to Dairy Queen and bought an ice cream cake...I am also excited to eat this! :) Oh, I forgot he also decided to join me on the war on ants. We bought this liquid ant bate. The ants are taking it back to their nest and slowly they are dying!! YAY we may have won....
As, for me and this pregnancy...today was a day where I just felt huge and unable to move. I have a little mroe energy now, but still am feeling huge. I did enjoy my relaxing day...not that I have much to do during the week, but still! I did get the laundry done and made dinner...I also have a chicken in the crock-pot for tomorrow...We are having chicken n' dumplins....Oh and I made it to the grocery store! SO, I did do some things...just not much! Well, it is time for me to cut into that wonderful DQ ice cream cake!!! YYAYAYAYAY